Crazy Mode Be Gone

In Lysa TerKeurst book, Made to Crave, she talks about struggling with a flawed perception of herself. She says, "My sense of identity and worth were dependent on the wrong things- my circumstances or my weight or whether I yelled at my kids that day or what other people thought of me. If I sensed I wasn't measuring up, I kicked into either withdrawal mode or fix-it mode. Withdrawal mode made me pull back from relationships, fearing others' judgements. I built walls around my heart to keep people at a distance. Fix-it mode made me over-analyze other people's every word and expression..." It's like she was writing about me. I do exactly that. I either withdraw to protect my feelings or try to fix myself to please others. People, this is crazy mode! And I can promise you it has caused me greater pain rather than protecting me like I hoped. I found in my crazy mode that I created distance from the people who God had given to support and encourage me. If I had only spoken up about how I was struggling instead of pulling away. I would also try to fix myself to fit what others thought I should be and in the process I would end up losing sight of what God was helping me become.

Now when I face a situation that could send me into crazy mode, I have to ask myself "What would be pleasing to God?". And if I can't answer that question, then I go to His Word and look for it. We are so blessed to have the Living Words of the Bible to be a guide. God has a purpose for each of us and that purpose is lost in crazy mode.

I will go before you

and will level the mountains ;

I will break down gates of bronze

and cut through bars of iron.

I will give you hidden treasures,

riches stored in secret places,

so that you may know that I am the Lord,

the God of Israel, who summons you by name. 

Isaiah 45:2-3